It’s just time under tension for lack of a better term. I used to do lots of recording for friends projects, I took music industry arts in college and I have a decent Instagram. I used to record all sorts of mediums every day. When I had my son three years ago I stopped sessioning, stopped gigging, switched my instagram to family stuff and I record maybe once or twice a month now.
What used to not even be a thought and at best excitement has once again become this crippling tension ridden ordeal.
Same as when I was a roofer. Ladders became my new staircase. When I went up this summer to change some blown shingles only one and a half stories up I was SHAKING lol.