Maybe you won’t succeed if you keep with it, I don’t know. I do know that you definitely won’t succeed if you don’t keep with it.
What this tells me is that you need to try a different approach. Would it be fair to say that you’ve had this mindset in the past when you were beating your head against that wall?
You need to take the pressure off yourself and try to enjoy the process. Let go of the expectation, and keep creating the conditions. Lightning will strike. Don’t be upset about the lack of repeatability, just be impressed with the possibility. In time, you’ll catch the lightning.
By the way, I’m 31, which makes me older than the majority of guys I compete against.
You keep going. It’s really that simple.
Stop comparing your progress to the progress of others. We’re all coming from different places and going in different directions. The only person you should be comparing yourself to is your previous self.

Don’t get me wrong I’m not automatic with it, and can only do it on incredible days, but when I’m on it feels easy and free. Lately I’ve been pretty “on” with it so started to feel good about myself and my accomplishments then poof it disappeared. I’m tripping over stuff now, sweeping again has become very choppy sounding, my picking hand hurts like I’m holding a bowling ball between my thumb and fingers… Over all just very uncoordinated. It just doesn’t make any sense to have that much of a decline. It would be like Tiger woods missing the ball every time he swung at it or sliced it off into the woods. It’s just very disheartening because I want to do this stuff live or on record and I’d be a fool to ever attempt it being so hit and miss, mainly miss. 




