Ive been in and out of gyms since I was 15ish. Im 51 now. The last 10-12 years has mostly been out lol
About 2 years ago i decided to lose some weight. So I basically just cut a lot of calories and went from 259 to 199. No exercise though. So I lost a lot of muscle too
Then I started back swimming at the local Y. When it got cold I decided to check out the weight room though I wasnt expecting much.
Well lately I feel the urge to get in better shape. So I started doing some machines, some dbell curls etc. I can feel that im not 25 or even 40 anymore lol
In the back of my head was the thought “well, are you gonna get real and squat, bench, and deadlift again?” The thought has been sort of daunting because I know im super weak right now and not very flexible and my cardio sucks bad. Thank God my hair still looks pretty good.
I competed in some powerlifting meets in my late 30s. My best lifts were bench 315 (325 gym), squat 425, dead 430 (445 gym). Nothing great for a “powerlifter” but good compared to the avg dude pushing 40. I was a respected “regular” in the gym and looked upon as a solid guy who knew his stuff.
That was then. This is now.
So I swallowed my pride and benched the other day. Well ive been doing some upper body machines etc so I was able to work up to 215 for one hard rep. Seems I remember in the day doing 225x13reps
Then today the moment of truth came. Squats. I used to somewhat live in the squat rack. I was the guy who REALLY squatted (deep). None of this half squatting crap for me. Well I havent even been doing leg machines at all. Nothing in maybe 6-7 ish years?? and last time (7-8 yrs ago?) I came back from a layoff I strained my back the first time I tried to squat.
So I go into the gym today with my big powerlifting belt that has been laying in the floor since probably 2012. I warm up and stretch and then I go wait a solid 30 minutes while these 3 football players squat in the 2 squat racks. As big and young as they are, they werent doing the weight I used to do and their squats were mile high squats lol. Mine have always been as# to grass.
What was my goal for today? Well, to not get hurt and just to get thru some squats. I would have been happy with 135ish but I did like 3 reps with 165 lol. A girl was in the same rack squatting 205ish the day before.
So I just relate the story to show that sometimes you have to accept reality and suck it up and be truthful and start where you REALLY are. Not where you wish you were. Not where you used to be. Not where you want to be.
Same goes for guitar playing. How many of us are trying to play faster than what we can REALLY play. How many are just going thru the motions mindlessly noodling everyday? Are we REALLY moving towards our goals? Or do we need to slow down and clean it up some and maybe try to come up with some structure and planning?
Im hoping to at LEAST squat 315 for reps again. But to do THAT I had to do what I did today. While it was embarrassing and sad, it was also a quantum leap. Yesterday I wasnt a squatter anymore. Today I am.