Ah ok, the feel is the important thing! So if it looks good, but feels bad, that’s bad! But, I still feel your motions and placement look good, and think that that must count for something. Also, you may be magnifying the errors in your head: sure, I hear inaccuracies and too-strong accents, but think, “oh yeah, that needs some work,” whereas you might think, “OH JEEZ, THAT NEEDS WORK AND HOLY SMOKES I SUCK.”
Also, that you feel your inaccuracies so strongly could be good, because it means you’re paying close attention, which is in itself a skill and informs your experiments. So, don’t get too focused on what’s missing, I feel there’s a lot of good things going on. But that’s all well and good … so try the points I mention above and see how that informs your feedback loop.
Sometimes for things like this it’s useful to try different “schedules”:
- play like this for a few mins, take a v short break, and try again
- play slow-fast-slow-fast etc for about 10 mins, take a longer break (an hour?) and try again
- play slow-fast-… for a long period of time, but take lots of breaks
The point is to try several small variations in your approach, which are all little experiments, and give yourself enough time to process the “data” you get back. If you’re relaxed and free of excess tension, it’s much easier to try different adjustments. These adjustments can be minute, e.g.:
- pick angle
- hand “height”
- wrist flexion/deviation
- small angle adjustments, rotation, etc.
Really, really small adjustments, as you’re just looking for that particular configuration that frees you up a bit more.
And then, sometimes, it might be useful to make really big adjustments – change your motion entirely.
Ah, I also threw some suggestions into the thread Capped for years at 100 bpm 16th notes that might be useful – accents and rhythms .
I hope that this is not too much info – the doing and observing is the important thing, not reading and theorizing. Plus I don’t know when to shut up. So I’ll shut up now, and you can see what thing work for you. Cheers! z